Kait (murabaka) wrote,

I supposed I never have to worry about returning Dead Girls Don't Cry now.

A kid I know killed himself this week. I can't really say friend, because I hadn't really seen him in a few years despite living in the same town. We used to hang out a lot maybe 2 or 3 years ago.

Everyone has been posting on his facebook page about how much they miss him and love him and hope he found peace. I know they're doing it for their own closure, but it's just like a big dick measuring contest. Everyone one is trying to outdo everyone else with how much they're going to miss him. You know what I've done? I've deleted his number from my phone, and after I post this I'm going to delete him from my facebook friends too.

I don't think I'll ever really understand suicide. I used to be depressed a lot and think about it a lot, but it was never an answer to anything. It's quitting. It makes me angry that this bright kid would do this to himself. I heard his dad was the one who found him. He hanged himself, so presumably he was found hanging from the ceiling. I would never do that to my parents. Ever.

I'm sad. I liked Aaron and had nothing but good times with him. I bought him cigarettes before he turned 18, and got drunk with him before either of us were 21. I actually thought he had been doing a lot better since starting college. I'm still mostly just angry.

He hasn't found peace, serenity or rest. He's just dead.
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